My ideal "gay guy"

Love at first site to this guy..Have seen him having his speech. Even told my bf that time that I would leave him for this guy..We started to be close, have a lot of things in common..I always look forward to events and happenings where I can have a lot of time and chances of being close to him. I have discovered he's being a gay just recently but I don't care at all. If there's something I am happy aboout lately, it is because I was able to tell him of my feelings..I am free, free to be happy just by the feel of his presence and watching him smile and enjoy..If I will meet a genie, I would not ask for three wishes..only one. I wish we ended up together..para kasing ang sarap nyang mahalin at alagaan..Para kong high school,kinikilig pag andyan sya...La lang..

Just being myself!!!

Well I guess am pretty enough,as to my own standard..hahaha..Kidding aside,I really don't know why I am very much inclined to those who are so called "guy gays". I remember I was only on the third grade when I first met a very good-looking guy that turned out to have a big crush on me, he's so manly but years passed and the last time I saw him was last month..Ayun ang lolo mo lola na.. Second encounter was grade six, we enjoyed roller skating then, my classmates and I used to go to this certain building in Merchan St. to skate. There we met a bunch of high school guys. One of them approached me, he's name is Carlo. His barcada teases us kasi bagay daw kami at crush nya daw ako.. Haven't heard from him after seeing him in the same school where I studied high school, that was almost 9 years ago. Four months ago, I was invited in a fiesta in the place of an old friend. I heard someone calling my name, when I turn back to look at the person, it was an unfamiliar face of a woman. She told me,don't you remember me?? I'm Carla, este Carlo pala..Asus, maganda pa sa kin ang ate mo, alang "kabakas- bakat" ng pagkalalake. Medyo mag-forward tayo ng konte. Four years ago I met this Dingdong Dantes look-alike guy through my ex-bf ( happened to be the dad of my daughter) feel ko type nya ko kasi tingin sya ng tingin sa kin. After that gimik, I have celebrated my birthday in our house at syempre invited ang ex ko..can't believe who's with him when I opened our gate, It was Dingdong(alike lang). From then on we became closer as ever..so close that he was able to reveal his true sexuality..ay naku!!gay guy eto..Okay lang naman, masaya kasi sya kasama. And finally he introduced me to JC, bowa nya that time. Ay pagkagwapo nila pareho, wla tulak kabigin. But it came to the point na naging close ko sila pareho,as in..But eventually Dingdong fall out of love for JC.There are times JC would make tambay in our house and Dingdong would call me just to make sure JC already left then saka nya ko pupuntahan sa haus. Madalas tuloy me ma-invite sa mga gay gatherings because I became friendly friends with this bunch of good-looking gays. Na-shock ako one time when we attend a party sinusubuan na ko ng food ni Dingdong,kaloka talaga...That time I was being courted by a certified guy( who is my great crush in elementary). Lets name him Bert. On the birthday of Bert's mom he invited me over,papakilala nya daw me sa family nya. My fon kept on beeping that night, it was Dingdong asking me where am I? I told him, I can't accomodate him at home cause am out but he insisted if I can ask the host to let me come home. Instead, Bert insisted to just invite Dingdong over. Katawa kasi nun magkakaharap na kami, Bert would text me, "selos ako ha, sino ba yan sa yo???". Hindi pa nasiyahan, lumabas pa kami kahit lasing-lasingan na sila pareho. Pagdating sa place hindi na ko iniwan ni Dingdong kasi nakaka-feel daw sya na type ako ni Bert at nag-seselos daw sya. As I remember ang sagot ko sa kanya "kanino, sa akin o sa kanya?".hahaha. That was the first time I saw him with that serious face. He answered me,"sa yo kasi I love you". Shocked ako but then after a while I realized mahal ko na din sya. Our relationship last for less than a year, pero we almost got married. Complicated lng kasi ayaw sa kin ng mom nya dahil single mom ako at ayaw naman ng mom ko sa kanya kasi amoy nya daw na bading si Dingdong...But until this day on we remained as very good friends. He would always tell me how he wanted na kami magkatuluyan. We still date, friendly lang naman....